On the shore of Forever

Hello everyone who read this blog !

I will postpone for now the third chapter from “Smoke and mirrors” for more important and exciting news.

For those who believe that they are the champions of modding community the real life served them with a huge surprise.

In a ( not so for me… 🙂 ) surprising move, ModDB announced the acquire of…( keep your breath ) … the acquire of GameFront !!!

With this bold move, ModDB will be in the near future the best modding hub, and not for ONE game or franchise, but instead for HUNDREDS of games !


Now became more clear for those who are used to think the difference between a small time business and REAL business, between passion, dedication, respect for people and some shady ( PS ) operation meant to trick honest but gullible people to drain money.

Because ModDB is not ONLY a hub to download mods is also a platform for indie games, for independent game developers and for mods authors or team of modders, a serious site who connect people with same interests and passions.

And now the topic became even more interesting since the same “champions”of modding, under the umbrella of “we are the Saviors of mods”, have DRAINED ( you should read STEALED  … mea culpa !) hundreds of mods, with no MORAL or LEGAL rights.

Those mods or total conversion were uploaded to GameFront for a reason, not to be STOLEN for PROFIT by a controversial site and owner…. do you REALLY think that they downloaded HUNDREDS or maybe THOUSANDS of mods from GameFront only because they are “the good guys” ?!… no, they STOLE those mods to enlarge a  database containing MAINLY mods for ONE franchise… Fallout, from one publisher… Bethesda.

Have you not guessed already who’s the owner and the site?!… read the PS :).

It will be more than interesting to watch how this events will evolve.

On another note, speaking about Bethesda… here is an example of how other companies could deal the relation with a modding community.

This surprise is from Paradox Interactive who is making available a  downloadable content for Cities: Skylines to feature creations from one of the game’s talented modders !!!



So it is possible for a company to value his modding community AND support their creation by opening the access to a legal income! And all of that without the hysterical atmosphere that could be found on other family of sites ( PS )… and so called community… ( Read PS 🙂 )!

You could ask yourself WHY Bethesda could not do the same ?!… well, you should read this instead and maybe you will understand the difference.

I remember the wave of rage and insults from the so called “community” who literally determined a lot of talented modders or team of modders to leave THAT site ( PS ) and THAT ( PS ) community and to migrate to other ( more ) civilised sites and people.

But let’s leave for now this topic and move on to something else…

I was playing for some time, for my pleasure ( and to keep my mind sharp :] ), with the GECK… yes, THAT GECK… for Fallout 3.

And I realized that those beautiful levels and landscapes begin to have something in common and I said to myself : “Why not? ”

In the last months I received a lot of questions about new content for the AQFH saga and for future plans…

The “Scorched Earth ” saga, meaning AQFH is indeed a closed chapter, but why not continue with a new story ? A story involving the dreadful Majestic organisation, or an ancient and almost forgotten mystery and a battle for a better future ?!… all in the atmosphere of Fallout 3… having AQFH as a background story.

SO… I will do my best to begin a new saga, “The Iron Dream“, bringing together the unpublished content from “Codename Icarus”, from the beginning levels of AQFH 4 and the new content, for a first episode, with a WIP name “On the shore of Forever” and I must say… judging only by the content build so far, the first episode from “The Iron Dream” will dwarf even the massive AQFH 3 !

But since it’s always room for better, ANYONE with skills in modeling, texturing, rigging, scripting or voice acting is welcome onboard !… ANYONE who love the atmosphere of FO3.

Just imagine… “Deep Blue” … bigger, better and more beautiful!

That’s all folks… have a nice day !







PS. 🙂 Have not guessed already?!… It’s about my old friends, the dark gang from nexus family of sites!





Nexus – Aftermath

A gang of amateurs driven by elitism, discontempt and lust for power… in a word ” Nexus family of sites “.

I will keep my comments to the minimum because this time I will reproduce the comment of an user, a modder, I will not reveal his nickname for obvious reasons.


Piracy is not a ” revolution ” against the system, it is people who cannot/will not pay for other peoples hard work, yet consider themselves entitled to it for free. It is theft, illegal, immoral, disrespectful and rude and selfish. It boils down to people just don’t want to pay…. so they steal.

No, the introduced pay mods scheme was not ” violently “done. The only violent thing that went on was the disgusting violence and abuse against not only the companies, but also the individual modders involved. There is no justification ever for demanding on mass that people “commit suicide” or threatening to track them down, kill them and their family and rape their corpse.

No justification for the most vile abuse and hatred, and also finding and releasing peoples personal information online so that the abuse could be taken further then the internet.

No justification EVER for that and no excuse period.

No one ‘forced’ the community to do anything, it was always an offered option to buy or sell mods. You couldn’t take mods down and resell them, Steam forbid that, free mods were not going anywhere. Only new mods or updated mods could be sold. People were entitled to disagree with paid for mods, but the backlash was unwarranted, incredibly unreasonable and not even done by the majority of the TES community at all. The majority of the upheaval and abuse was thrown by users from various websites that don’t give a damn about mods or TES, they incite riot of the ‘lulz’.

Yes communication could have been better, but really I don’t think that would have actually made any difference at all. People were out for riot because they just don’t want to pay. What should have happened was a far more calm, mature and less offensive approach to disagreeing with the situation if indeed the majority of the community did disagree.

No the customer is not always right. I worked over ten years in customer service and you learn that you cannot please everyone, it is impossible. Many dissatisfied customers are completely unreasonable. But the point is that those trolls that hurled abuse and crap were never customers and were never going to be customers, ever. We gain nothing from those people downloading our mods, except frequently abuse, so really their opinion actually means nothing.

The only social damage done to this community is the very clear and plain message sent out to modders about exactly how much value the public actually puts on modders and mods, the learning and knowledge required to mod as well as the hundreds, often thousands of hours of hard work that goes into making mods. When push came to shove and users were asked to give something beyond the odd endorsement and nice comment in order to get a mod ….the majority flat out didn’t want to, many to the point of making death threats. But they all still happily consume all our work, often without so much as a thank you.

Add to that the point when it became not only okay but encouraged and applauded to pirate our mods.( For example one user going by the name Vesuvius was claiming that mods were uploaded to pirate torrents MINUTES after were uploaded to Steam… how he knew that?!… unless… )

This community has ALWAYS stood against piracy and rallied and fought to protect our modders rights regarding their hard work for the ten years I have been here. This is where the community let it’s own down the hardest, not just the public, other modders who felt free to condone theft of mods, yet stood up expecting us all to rally and protect their free mods in the recent 450 mods theft by some russian guy. Trust has been lost and it is not Steam or Bethesda’s fault or pay for mods fault. It was the unnecessary, disgusting behavior exhibited by a large portion of this community, sorry but that is just a fact.

I have no doubt that what will come out of this and I know for a fact already has, is that modders have left, modders have got the ‘message’ and are now just distributing mods to friends. This whole thing was a slap it the face, kick in the balls and punch in the gut of people who have given so freely of their time, knowledge and hard work for years, by not only the public but also other modders. I am disgusted, revolted and angry.

Now that the trolls have moved onto the next shiny thing the real TES community is finally coming out of hiding. Those that do support and appreciate the value of someone else’s time and effort. Those that tried to speak up but were subjected to disgusting abuse. The part of the community that is actually reasonable and even if they disagree would never resort to prepubescent temper tantrums.

There and I told myself that I would not get involved in any of these discussions. I guess I am still angry and hurt by what was a shocking display of entitlement and violence. I will not be reading or replying to this thread further, I have had enough of peoples ‘opinions’ to last me a life time and I see no reason to have to ‘defend’ myself even more. I don’t mean to offend anyone and never did. I am trying to focus on the kind words that many have sent me because after ten years as part of this community I don’t want to leave or feel that I cannot still release my work….but sometimes it is hard, I won’t deny that.

In fact, the Nexus “staff” did NOTHING to stop this wave of hate and violence… a disgusting attitude from a disgusting gang, lead by a disgusting man.

An operation to grab a lot of money from honest but gullible people, offering only goodies like NMM, a piece of ” software” full of security holes and suspicious behaviour… harassing moderators, nazi admins who ban people based on Personal Messages and so on.

Farewell Nexus… R.I.P.

Best wishes to all

Farewell Fallout 3

The “Scorched Earth Saga”, meaning AQFH saga for Fallout 3 has ended.

For several reasons.

First of all, the outdated game engine of Fallout 3.

In my humble opinion, with AQFH 3 – Deep Blue it was reached the maximum potential for visual, audio and gameplay for a quest and adventure mod, using the Fallout 3 engine.

One of the “trademark”of the AQFH series was established first by Firelady and it was the original and impressive visual appearance. This trademark was maintained during all the episodes, improved and enlarged leading to the impressive Deep Blue.

ALL the levels of AQFH series was created from scratch, no copy/paste like so many have done during the time, most of the levels are at least to say large and detailed.

Another trademark of the AQFH series was the sound track… almost every level or situation has his unique music.

Also the ingame sounds, it was also a first, introduced by Firelady in Episode 1 and maintained and enriched during episode 2 and 3, creating a very unique and strong atmosphere.

And above all of this, a gripping main story with many other side stories, creating an unique and impressive image of a scorched world, with forgotten mysteries and dangerous secrets.

A second reason why the AQFH series for Fallout 3 has ended was the fact that my real life had changed dramatically, in a good way, my spare time to work to such mod was drastically reduced.

The third reason was… well… the “community” behaviour.

Frankly I get tired and angered at that time by the numerous virulent and offending comments towards me, or mine and Firelady work. Blaming the mod because the users don’t have an updated PC, because we don’t created also a walkthrough ( ?!! ) and so on.

I have not “”inherited” AQFH 3… I have WORKED directly to Episode 2 and managed entirely Episode 3, many of the level design from Episode 2 and almost all from Episode 3 was my work.

I have read comments related to Episode 3 like: “half of the work in Deep Blue was done by others” or “the author has disrespect for customers ( ?!!) “… of course where else, at Nexus…

A user on Mod DB, said that it would donate if this is the only condition to play more “updates” for AQFH… it wont be the case, AQFH WAS and IS totally free, nor Firelady or me have requested something for our “baby”…( beside I simply don’t believe in the “donation” system, since most of the users don’t even bother to vote… I have received 1 (ONE) donation after Episode 3 was released and it was from a friend !, after more than 3k downloads).

An other issue I want to address here… I DO have a problem to allow someone else to continue this saga and I want to make it very clearly here, I wont allow to anyone to use the AQFH name, story or any related topics without my written consent.

First of all, for quality reasons, the AQFH series was the ONLY series who was evolving from good to great, with every episode the quality bar was raised higher and higher. Players from ALL over the world have enjoyed this adventure, from Europe to America, from Asia to Australia. It was a great honor for Firelady and me to see how many minds and souls we have touched with our creation.

I seriously doubt that someone else will have the skill, the imagination, the will, the passion to work months after months and to came up with something AT LEAST similar to Episode 3.

For all the reasons above ( and a few other more personal), the AQFH series for Fallout 3 is ended, all support is suspended, Episode 3 DLC “Codename Icarus” and WIP “The Iron Dream” are both canceled.

IF it will be A Fallout 4, who knows, maybe the story of Gabriel Darvari and the Wonderboy will continue…

Until then… I continue working with U4 engine at AQFH – Nightfall.

Best wishes to all

Return to Heaven – The Infamy

The Infamy… that’s the only way how it should be named what the Nexus “community”did this days.

From a protest against the announcement made by Valve\Bethesda about paid mods, the Nexus “community” was sweeped by a tidal wave of irrational rage, hate and intolerance directed towards ALL the modders.

The beginning:


The aftermath…

Modders was described as”spoiled”brats”, “greedy”, “piggy-backers” and even “ungrateful ( !!! )”, every modder raising his voice against this wave of mud was INSTANTLY covered in comments ranging from sarcastic discontempt  like ” whatever, is not much about your work so piss off ” or ” you won’t be regretted” to comments more personal like ” say hi to Devil when you go to Hell” or “see you dead you m**** f****”.

This … mob is having the impression that is entitled to free mods, to put a gag in modders mouth.

” Gimme your work and shut the f*** up, you greedy spoiled brat”… basically that was the idea of the whole Nexus community, no matter the fancy arguments.

You could compare the way how this subject was discussed here:


or here


With the way how the entire modding community was trashed by some lowlife nobody dictators with big mouths full of… lies ( what you believed ?!… ).


What you will read there ( if you are interested in the future of modding of course… and your guts are strong enough ) is beyond any rational behaviour of a human being.

A mob, explaining to MODDERS what MODDING is or even better, how and what it should be.

A mob “knowing” better than MODDERS how a mod is created and build.

A mob using in fact a dirty smoke screen of more or less fancy words to hide their deepest concern… they are entitled to the free mods no matter what… example this comment from the twisted mind of a Nexus USER :

“When a user clicks the ENDORSE button, they are endorsing the mod, not the mod author”… his out of his mind or not?!

As far as endorsements go, well they are a kind of thumbs up to other users looking for a mod. They are not a thank you to the modder, they are not some kind of pseudo payment.

All it does is say “I think other people will like this” and by creating a classement could give an idea how good is that mod, again, from the users point of view, but in any terms, you could not dissociate the author from his mod.

Now the magic word in everyone mouth is “DONATION “… where was Nexus at the right momment to sustain the modders?

NOW they implement the donate button ( and another proof that they don’t REALLY care is where they put that button… on the DOWNLOAD reminder!!!… who the Hell will pay upfront before trying the mod?)… I would be curious how long will last this trend, since people are not willing even to click the endorse button… 🙂

But I should no wonder about Nexus, since they was listed as Service Provider in those days.

The champion of free modding was covertly adding some cash… disgusting but understandable from someone like Robin aka DarkOne.

Instead of cutting the evil from the very roots, he tolerated this unholy crusade against modders, not EVEN one of the vitriolic and aggressive user was banned for the filth they thrown on modders, for trashing, bashing, flaming all the modders as a whole… Modpocalyse.

To be very clear understand here, I’m NOT defending the pay mod system, I’m defending the right to FREE opinion, FREE act and FREE will.

How strange is life… in my last post I  was about to talk about community and now the “community ” revealed his true nightmarish face, a face twisted by discontempt, hate and intolerance.

The people feeling entitled to other peoples work and entitled to dictating the choices that others make is what caused this rift.

True respect is allowing others to make decisions for themselves, even if you disagree with those decisions.

This means that the modders, and those willing to purchase their mods, should be allowed to sale and purchase clearly owned mods for whatever price they agree upon.

You don’t get to dictate to modders what the appropriate price for their mod is, what an appropriate amount of recompense for selling their mod is, or how much the purchaser gets to pay, while claiming you have any respect for the individuals involved in the voluntary transaction.

People have the right to sale whatever they clearly, CLEARLY own, for whatever amount they wish, to whomever agrees to purchase it.

You have not moral, ethical, or legal right to interfere in this voluntary exchange.

That’s WHY I decided to delete all the files from Nexus, because I don’t want that the name AQFH to be associated with the Nexus realm of intolerance and hypocrisy..

I also deleted all the files from my computer related to Fallout 3 ( Codename Icarus and AQFH 4 ), no more future AQFH episodes for haters.

Instead I decided to focus on Unreal 4 game engine, who is entirely FREE !!!, just take a look here:


Smart and extraordinary move from Epic… they WILL have a lot of talented developers ( read: modders and teams of modders ) to choose from, more than they could EVER afford to pay.

So… if anyone is willing to embark into a new adventure, now is the time.

A Quest for Heaven – Nightfall ( WIP name ) is beginning his journey, maybe YOU could stand beside ME and create TOGETHER something wonderful.

Return to Heaven – Chapter two

Zealot (from Greek ζηλωτήςzelotes, “emulator, zealous admirer or follower”)

Nexus (fromLatin nexus (the act of binding together; bond), from nectō (bind)

nexus – It’s a private property owned by the DorkOne, and he has the right to do whatever he wants with you, he owns you… 🙂

Today I will speak about zealots and their masters.

Maybe initial it was a good intention… maybe initial it was enthusiasm… maybe.

We will never know, what is certain is that the owner of the so called nexus of modding changed all into something evil and despicable.

The hungry for money and power turn a good initiative into the opposite, tearing apart the “community”.

He surrounded himself with people of the same low extraction and begin to… harass the very ones who sustained and make it possible with their work the sites, modders and fans… arrogance, discontempt, this are the common basis for daily “moderator” work.

Let’s take a look at this mad circus… and I will begin from the bottom of the “food chain”…

Micalov – staff member

The lowest bully, it’s used as an enforcer of the lowest quality. He love to lure people into traps and ban them after that.

You could be banned by this “muscle” if you disagree with him, if you ask questions ( for example a poor guy ask if he could use mods on console… it was banned for “PIRACY” ! ).

He love the mockery and verbal abuse towards most common problems asked by people.

Main weapons – misleading, lies and arrogance, all augmented with the most suburban way of speaking.

Thandal – staff member

This guy is the mad dog of the Nexus, in a contest of the craziest people from nexus this guy will win with no opponents.

Basically take everything that is wrong in a modern day government and stuff it into this guy’s online entity.

He has zero common sense and has finger on the ban trigger 24/7. Step out of line just a millimeter and your virtual brain will be splattered across the wall. And even if you don’t step out of line, be prepared to face the belittling of a lifetime via private messages ( one person was banned for deleting his save folder in the MyGames directory…He called them a pirate !!!).

Main weapons – Fights dirty and he loves it, also he accuse without the smallest proof or evidence.

Of course they are some others ( MotoScorpion, LadyMilla, Millenia… ) but they are not worthy to be mentioned compared to the above “giants”, all that they have in common is the same arrogance and elitism towards… everyone.

Now let’s go up the chain food… more surprises await us, now we will will deal with the top predators…

Vagrant0 – moderator

His sarcasm and snide remarks are aggravating and purposely made to stir people up. Too bad the concept of “trolling” doesn’t apply to the moderators… because it would, this guy will win the cup of “Master Troll”.

He sticks around the forums so you can easily avoid him. Same with buddah, who is equally as pretentious and self-centered.

The Vampire Dante – moderator

This one is from another extraction… smart, sometimes benevolent and with some artistic talent but…

But has no spine, obey to his dark master orders, deleting files, modifying accounts and even threatening people, all in the same line with the others but with a more “intellectual “approach… he managed to fool a lot of people, but you cannot fool all the people all the time.

And at the top of the food chain… who else than the Dark master.

Who troll all the possible sites to hunt down all the possible opponents of his “private property”, a guy who had no problems in naming assholes those who use addblockers, a guy who’s promoting in an aggressive way a mod manager who needs administrative rights ( !!! ) to access your PC, to access YOUR local data, ANY of your local data… ( you should also expect your IP and UserAgent to be visible through ExtremeTracking… what a hell, it’s a private property)

And below this horde of elitist and arrogant people are the zealots, you know them, those who jump to defend the moderators rule, splattering all over the forums with their arguments taken directly from mods mouth… literally.

One the best example is a black kitty… no creativity, no talent, nothing but…

But “she” know everything about everything and more important, “she’s” in the line.

And like this kat are many more others, ready to trash you for a bit of attention from the Dark Horde. One of the most disappointed moment for me was when a person who I was respecting jumped on my throat accusing me of stealing and dishonoring the memory of Firelady… disgusting… ( later when that person knew the real truth not the one fabricated by the Horde apologize… but it was too late).

And one more thing… they have also something in common… 🙂

Almost all of them tried to create something and guess what?!…they failed… what a damn hilarious fate, to be a moderator and your mods to be ignored… rofl… (“Almost”meaning that one very talented person get lost inside this Horde and I must mention him, for his human and artistic qualities – LHammonds.)

But enough with the Dark Horde… they have a Dark master as a ruler and they will fade away into the darkness and oblivion they belong.

They tried to expand to other popular games but they failed… once you trash your public image is hard to fix it.

They failed to create and maintain a community and the payback could be seen from here…

But more about the “community”, about the arrogance and obedience, in the next chapter.


Until we meet again, what could be the link between “A Quest for Heaven – The Iron Dream” and the game engine Unreal 4 ?…

Have a nice day 🙂

Return to Heaven – Chapter one

It’s some time since I haven’t write something, mostly because a lot of good things happened in my life recently, keeping me busy and excited about the new twist in my personal adventure named real life.

But this days I felt that I must return to one of the important part of my life, namely… modding.

I will begin with some questions and I will end with an announcement.

First question it’s about a certain site, who’s owner believe is the nexus of all modding scene… at least that he hopped. During the last years, this site or better said family of sites, become more and more aggressive, elitist and arrogant against his own PAID users, regular users and modders, using tactics like intimidation ( threatening people because speak about “banned” subjects, removing pictures who also contain “banned” names !!! ), sarcastic “moderators” comments to normal questions of normal people, misleading information about the paid accounts and so on.

Even worst… they released a so called “mod manager”, promoting in an aggressive way the use of this mod manager, when it was already a very powerful and stable mod manager… and honest. Honest?… Yes, because this mod manager has a very peculiar behavior.

In my line of work I meet a wide range of people with various jobs, including IT services and I mean professional IT engineers and software programmers. When I ask some of this people to take a look at this piece of “software” the first question what I was asked was: “Where the Hell did you get this piece of junk? “

It’s not about the poor programming, it’s not about the unprofessional way is assembled, it’s about what this ” thing” is NOT doing.

Quoting one of the engineers who examined this software… ” It has so many security holes that I wonder what is the real purpose of this… junk !”

Any honest software will ask YOUR approval to collect information about you or at least will warn you about collecting information… but not this mod manager. Where goes the information collected about you ( browsing habits, personal data, local PC data )… well, only the creator of this software and the owner of the site knows…

But maybe you have noticed the abundance of ads and commercials suffocating you when you browse the pages of this site and strangely… this commercials fit exactly your browsing history. Do you think this information, collected from MILLIONS of users is for free?!…

Is not.

A greedy owner, surrounded by power hungry people, infected with elitism, contempt and  harassment towards the normal people…. nice public image for those who claim to be the nexus of modding… What about the tolerated and encouraged zealots pointed to mislead, disinform and harass people, what about hunting down users on other sites, what about stupidity…well, more in Chapter Two…


Despite some adverse conditions, AQFH 3 it’s again available to those who love quests and adventures.

Although it has some fierce battle sequences, AQFH 3 it’s not a “kill them all” mod… although it has many puzzles, it’s not a brain squeezing mod…
Most certainly you will ask – “So what it is after all?! “…
It all above AND an excellent story, because I believe that the story is what make the AQFH series so thrilling and enjoyable ( maybe I’m wrong, I’m just a normal guy…).

As Firelady intended and I try to continue along this path, to create a credible story, able to sustain by it self, to create a logic and credible universe where strange and gripping stories could be told… with the support of stunning visuals and music.

Maybe you will ask “Why only for Fallout 3 ?”… because the Fallout 3 universe is more versatile, because is more grim and tragic than New Vegas ( personally I consider FNV more like a cowboy story than a post apocalyptic world… but that’s just me).
Because in Fallout 3 you could use a more dramatic and human approach than FNV… after all it about a world devastated by a nuclear war.

That’s why AQFH series DON’T have support for TTW… period. If someone want to port AQFH series to TTW, fine by me, but don’t ask for support.
And here I want to talk about an aspect of the human nature…


There is a Russian version of the AQFH, a super mod, gathering episodes 1 and 2 and episode 3 demo… have SOMEONE send a courtesy email to announce this?!
Same for TTW… have SOMEONE send a courtesy email to talk about this?!

It’s the same problem that was on ( cross fingers! ) Nexus, a lot of people DEMANDING help but few of those demanders actually endorsing the mods…
Nor Firelady or me have begged for votes ( like so many others)… but is a common sense reason, if you want quality content for free, at least show your appreciation… somehow.

Speaking of which ( see above the cross fingers), they needed 4 (!!!) years to implement a so called endorsing reminder… of course that’s entirely optional… :)… what do you expect?!

After all, they doing big money from other work so why not throwing some dust in fools eyes? For those who knows how to rub two bucks from the Internet, just think about how many traffic they have, how many views and clicks, how many “members” who pay to be member… but that’s not a subject to be talked here… 🙂

Just a quick thought for those who use the brain… WHY you need a DEDICATED mod manager when we already HAD one? And it’s CLEAN and DON’t send all kind of stuff over the Internet…

Anyway… for the near future is scheduled a DLC for AQFH 3, “Codename Icarus” who will make the connection with the final part of this series AQFH 4 – The Iron Dream.
Both are WIP, “Codename Icarus” deadline is situated in December 2014 as for “The Iron Dream” the most optimistic deadline is somewhere in May 2015.
If I’m still alive till then… 🙂

A true story… Episode 2

I’m back with a new true story, but to properly begin I must reproduce a personal message from one of the Nexus site staff members, with his exact words and writing.


22 March 2014, 02:56


micalov has sent you a new personal conversation entitled “File hidden by staff – A Quest for Heaven Episode 3”.

micalov said:

I have set your file a Quest for Heaven episode 3 to hidden from public view as it contains illegal assets I am afraid.

The member T0xa is a well know ripper from commercial games so all assets of his used minus the stalker animal meshes must be removed from the mod unfortunately and are also not allowed on the Nexus family of sites.

We understand this can be a pain especially for such a large mod but we can not allow illegal assets even if the mod author was not aware of it.

Once the assets have been removed from the mod feel free to unhide it but please do not unhide it until this has been done thank you.



So… notice how that “ I ” is changing at some point suddenly in ” WE “…

Also ” minus the stalker animal meshes ” what does that mean? Toxa is half ripper? some assets ARE allowed and some others don’t?

Or this one ” […] are also not allowed on the Nexus family of sites ” … you must be joking, because in this case you should ban at least a half from mods from Nexus!

After I asked micalov staff member about what resources we talk, exactly, that was the response:


27 March 2014, 01:45


micalov has replied to a personal conversation entitled “File hidden by staff – A Quest for Heaven Episode 3”.

micalov said:

Apologies for the late reply, the file was only hidden, not set into moderator review, the models in question are the toxa ones, namely off hand the time assassin armor is a defo rip from Unreal if I recall and the weapons are heavily suspicious of rips presuming they are his, as a rule of thumb we do not allow Toxa assets in mods full stop minus Stalker creatures because he tends to use 90% ripped assets and the weapons look like a mash up of MW and BF weapons on inspection to be exact.

Toxa himself was given enough chances and kept doing the same.



I responded him with a list of all credited authors, including weapons models.

I agree to change that armor model and some weapons models who might be from Toxa.

Again I asked him to pinpoint exactly the other models in question… well, that final message vent into the wind, since micalov staff member… never responded back.

How it’s possible to have a file voted for the “File of the Month “, to be endorsed ( along others ) by the same micalov staff member and after five ( 5 ! ) month, to ban the author?!

Someone tipped the micalov staff member about the shady things inside AQFH 3?!

Well… now we enter into the twilight zone of the Nexus.

Today I will speak about ONE of the strange characters roaming that place, a character who LOVE to throw on you a wall of text, babbling all kind of pseudo tech stuff, to make you understand how great is she, how much she know about… everything.

Because is a ” she “… or at least that want us to believe .

This ” she ” don’t know that you DO need codecs to hear some music, including for games.

The same ” she ” has the ferm impression that FILES change names when loaded into an editor, or even more interesting, that the files, miraculously, change attributes because of the OS, so if you have something created in Windows XP and you run on Windows 7, you are doomed, your files will begin a crazy movement of changing names AND location, ( maybe they have free will ?! )

The same ” she ” accused one of the well know modders ( mostly for his gorgeous armor models and pictures ) that hi stoled textures from Skyrim… because she saw a GREYED field in NifSkope… without knowing that this was only a feature FOR the Skyrim models only!

The same ” she ” after it was removed from the testing team for AQFH 3, begin a not so subtle campaign against AQFH 3.

”  You wanna be really careful about who you slam on that web site


That’s a line from someone who is able to create only… pictures, taken using others work.

From someone who is confusing people with aberrant explanations.

Because that’s the main difference between creators and destroyers… the first ones could create something from their minds and souls, the second ones know only how to talk about…

Purr for me black kitty… and rest in cc mechanical pieces!

Just wait to read the next story… 🙂




A true story… episode 1

When the Fallout 3 mod “A Quest for Heaven: Secrets from the Past” first came out, the success was a surprise even for Doria aka Firelady.

You will never guess where had Firelady the “fire” to create such a gem on the first try. It’s true, it was the FIRST mod for Fallout 3 made by Firelady.

At some point she had asked a very “well renowned” mod maker for some advice and help regarding some scripting. The answer was: ” You have the GECK, learn by yourself, I don’t have time to waste with newbie’s“.

That was the starting point for one of the most successful series of mods for Fallout 3. That one arrogant answer.

During that period, the mod maker, who easily missplaces his notes, was overthrown by Firelady. Ah, but you don’t spit in someone’s face without consequences …

Time had passed and “A Quest for Heaven 2: Like a Diamond in the Sky” saw the light of public release … and then began a subtle crusade against Firelady. At least, from our point of view it did. Suspicious things began happening.

The Nexus site kept the “File of the Month” position open for 2 MONTHS and A Quest for Heaven 2 was not selected as a winner even though it had met all the requirements and had enough votes for that position at the end of the first month… this had never happened before, and it never happened afterward.

Time had passed again … and suddenly, the same well renowned mod maker began complaining (whined about it actually) that his mods NEVER win the “File of the Month” … you will never guess what happened next! Suddenly, the old mods with missplaced notes and meetings with strange bedfellows began to be VOTED File of the Month! Sure, a small number of votes, but enough to satisfy the ego.

At that point, Doria told me: “It’s time to leave Nexus, they don’t like us, they don’t want us!

I argued with her, for the sake of the fans of AQFH series. Why?, because you could find the “A Quest for Heaven” mod series being downloaded and rated by people from all over the world, from Russia to Japan, from North America to South America, from China to Malaysia. Let’s face it, it was a popular series that people all over the world admired.

She reconsidered pulling the series from Nexus based on my arguments. Finally, Doria (Firelady) was getting the recognition she deserved. AQFH 3  was voted File of the Month at the end of 2013. Too late for Doria… It was endorsed by so many, including the Nexus “micalov staff member “. Is this crazy or what?

Later, it would turn out that my advice to Doria was wrong, and that she was right all along.

But more in the next episode, about those who talk… and talk… and do nothing. They just talk, thinking that they have all the answers and that they are the “masters of advice”.

A story that begins with a Kat and ends in a drama…

A shameful decision

It was a time when visiting Nexus site was almost a daily basis.

It was… since someone from the staff decided that I’m no longer welcome.

And that someone proceeded in the most dictatorial possible way, something like in Kafka ” The Trial”.

Accused and executed without a minimal chance to defend my honor and reputation, like in the old “good” times of regimes like Nazi or Soviets.

I will reproduce here the original message sent to Nexus staff… never answered back.

I let the conclusions to your judgement.


Esteemed staff of Nexus

Regarding my recent ban from Nexus.

I want to clarify some aspects regarding the accusations made by micalov staff member.
I will quote he’s own words from the ban reason:

” Use of ripped assets in a mod and blatanly ignoring staff requests to remove them when you were given ample chance”

In the first PM message from micalov staff member to me, was mentioned the name of  Toxa, regarding an armor model for a character who briefly appear and some weapons models.
When I asked him about what specific mesh models are questionable,he mentioned again the armor model and some weapons looking “suspicious “, but the creatures models beeing ok to be used.
No exact pinpointing, no exact references, just… “looking suspicious”.
In my last PM message to him I was asking AGAIN to point me exactly to the questionable models, agreeing to change the armor and known Toxa weapons models, even I attached a list of the weapons models with the known and credited authors.
I NEVER got a response from micalov staff member… for months!
Who is ignoring who and who make false affirmations without CLEAR evidence??

You could verify this in your PM data base.

” You were asked to remove these assets from toxa1 and a few others some month back via private message and your file was hidden by staff”.

WHEN asked me in a private message micalov staff member to remove resources, beside toxa, “FROM A FEW OTHERS”?
From where show up suddenly those “FEW OTHERS”?
I stated clearly at the end of Credits list that I will gladly add to credits ANYONE who was not known or forgot.
Due to the way how AQFH3 was finished, I don’t had the full list of credits, even this days I have added to the Credits list an author discovered by chance ( added and endorsed ).
But from here to the false claim “toxa AND A FEW OTHERS ” it’s a long way.

Again, all my PM conversations with micalov staff member could be verified in your PM data base.

“Since you just unhide the file and left it intact… “

Maybe micalov staff member did not noticed the massive patch uploaded, who contain ALL the modifications I promised to make.
In ANY court in the civilized world this affirmation is simply… false ( using a civilized word ).

I was open minded and good will,I made the changes and uploaded into the AQFH3 PAtch 01, so the file is not “intact”.

So WHAT is the ban reason?!

( Excuse my English if is strange…)

And now the cherry on the cake…
Since when micalov staff member is entitled to make moral judgments about shame?
On others hard work and passion.
Ignoring people, false acusations and truncated truth, this are the dictatorial arguments of a staff member from Nexus?

Don’t you DARE to bring Firelady’s name as an argument to ME, micalov staff memeber!I was there not you!
WHO gives you the right to patronize people? Internet?
Shame on YOU!