Return to Heaven – Chapter one

It’s some time since I haven’t write something, mostly because a lot of good things happened in my life recently, keeping me busy and excited about the new twist in my personal adventure named real life.

But this days I felt that I must return to one of the important part of my life, namely… modding.

I will begin with some questions and I will end with an announcement.

First question it’s about a certain site, who’s owner believe is the nexus of all modding scene… at least that he hopped. During the last years, this site or better said family of sites, become more and more aggressive, elitist and arrogant against his own PAID users, regular users and modders, using tactics like intimidation ( threatening people because speak about “banned” subjects, removing pictures who also contain “banned” names !!! ), sarcastic “moderators” comments to normal questions of normal people, misleading information about the paid accounts and so on.

Even worst… they released a so called “mod manager”, promoting in an aggressive way the use of this mod manager, when it was already a very powerful and stable mod manager… and honest. Honest?… Yes, because this mod manager has a very peculiar behavior.

In my line of work I meet a wide range of people with various jobs, including IT services and I mean professional IT engineers and software programmers. When I ask some of this people to take a look at this piece of “software” the first question what I was asked was: “Where the Hell did you get this piece of junk? “

It’s not about the poor programming, it’s not about the unprofessional way is assembled, it’s about what this ” thing” is NOT doing.

Quoting one of the engineers who examined this software… ” It has so many security holes that I wonder what is the real purpose of this… junk !”

Any honest software will ask YOUR approval to collect information about you or at least will warn you about collecting information… but not this mod manager. Where goes the information collected about you ( browsing habits, personal data, local PC data )… well, only the creator of this software and the owner of the site knows…

But maybe you have noticed the abundance of ads and commercials suffocating you when you browse the pages of this site and strangely… this commercials fit exactly your browsing history. Do you think this information, collected from MILLIONS of users is for free?!…

Is not.

A greedy owner, surrounded by power hungry people, infected with elitism, contempt and  harassment towards the normal people…. nice public image for those who claim to be the nexus of modding… What about the tolerated and encouraged zealots pointed to mislead, disinform and harass people, what about hunting down users on other sites, what about stupidity…well, more in Chapter Two…



Despite some adverse conditions, AQFH 3 it’s again available to those who love quests and adventures.

Although it has some fierce battle sequences, AQFH 3 it’s not a “kill them all” mod… although it has many puzzles, it’s not a brain squeezing mod…
Most certainly you will ask – “So what it is after all?! “…
It all above AND an excellent story, because I believe that the story is what make the AQFH series so thrilling and enjoyable ( maybe I’m wrong, I’m just a normal guy…).

As Firelady intended and I try to continue along this path, to create a credible story, able to sustain by it self, to create a logic and credible universe where strange and gripping stories could be told… with the support of stunning visuals and music.

Maybe you will ask “Why only for Fallout 3 ?”… because the Fallout 3 universe is more versatile, because is more grim and tragic than New Vegas ( personally I consider FNV more like a cowboy story than a post apocalyptic world… but that’s just me).
Because in Fallout 3 you could use a more dramatic and human approach than FNV… after all it about a world devastated by a nuclear war.

That’s why AQFH series DON’T have support for TTW… period. If someone want to port AQFH series to TTW, fine by me, but don’t ask for support.
And here I want to talk about an aspect of the human nature…


There is a Russian version of the AQFH, a super mod, gathering episodes 1 and 2 and episode 3 demo… have SOMEONE send a courtesy email to announce this?!
Same for TTW… have SOMEONE send a courtesy email to talk about this?!

It’s the same problem that was on ( cross fingers! ) Nexus, a lot of people DEMANDING help but few of those demanders actually endorsing the mods…
Nor Firelady or me have begged for votes ( like so many others)… but is a common sense reason, if you want quality content for free, at least show your appreciation… somehow.

Speaking of which ( see above the cross fingers), they needed 4 (!!!) years to implement a so called endorsing reminder… of course that’s entirely optional… :)… what do you expect?!

After all, they doing big money from other work so why not throwing some dust in fools eyes? For those who knows how to rub two bucks from the Internet, just think about how many traffic they have, how many views and clicks, how many “members” who pay to be member… but that’s not a subject to be talked here… 🙂

Just a quick thought for those who use the brain… WHY you need a DEDICATED mod manager when we already HAD one? And it’s CLEAN and DON’t send all kind of stuff over the Internet…

Anyway… for the near future is scheduled a DLC for AQFH 3, “Codename Icarus” who will make the connection with the final part of this series AQFH 4 – The Iron Dream.
Both are WIP, “Codename Icarus” deadline is situated in December 2014 as for “The Iron Dream” the most optimistic deadline is somewhere in May 2015.
If I’m still alive till then… 🙂

A true story… Episode 2

I’m back with a new true story, but to properly begin I must reproduce a personal message from one of the Nexus site staff members, with his exact words and writing.


22 March 2014, 02:56


micalov has sent you a new personal conversation entitled “File hidden by staff – A Quest for Heaven Episode 3”.

micalov said:

I have set your file a Quest for Heaven episode 3 to hidden from public view as it contains illegal assets I am afraid.

The member T0xa is a well know ripper from commercial games so all assets of his used minus the stalker animal meshes must be removed from the mod unfortunately and are also not allowed on the Nexus family of sites.

We understand this can be a pain especially for such a large mod but we can not allow illegal assets even if the mod author was not aware of it.

Once the assets have been removed from the mod feel free to unhide it but please do not unhide it until this has been done thank you.



So… notice how that “ I ” is changing at some point suddenly in ” WE “…

Also ” minus the stalker animal meshes ” what does that mean? Toxa is half ripper? some assets ARE allowed and some others don’t?

Or this one ” […] are also not allowed on the Nexus family of sites ” … you must be joking, because in this case you should ban at least a half from mods from Nexus!

After I asked micalov staff member about what resources we talk, exactly, that was the response:


27 March 2014, 01:45


micalov has replied to a personal conversation entitled “File hidden by staff – A Quest for Heaven Episode 3”.

micalov said:

Apologies for the late reply, the file was only hidden, not set into moderator review, the models in question are the toxa ones, namely off hand the time assassin armor is a defo rip from Unreal if I recall and the weapons are heavily suspicious of rips presuming they are his, as a rule of thumb we do not allow Toxa assets in mods full stop minus Stalker creatures because he tends to use 90% ripped assets and the weapons look like a mash up of MW and BF weapons on inspection to be exact.

Toxa himself was given enough chances and kept doing the same.



I responded him with a list of all credited authors, including weapons models.

I agree to change that armor model and some weapons models who might be from Toxa.

Again I asked him to pinpoint exactly the other models in question… well, that final message vent into the wind, since micalov staff member… never responded back.

How it’s possible to have a file voted for the “File of the Month “, to be endorsed ( along others ) by the same micalov staff member and after five ( 5 ! ) month, to ban the author?!

Someone tipped the micalov staff member about the shady things inside AQFH 3?!

Well… now we enter into the twilight zone of the Nexus.

Today I will speak about ONE of the strange characters roaming that place, a character who LOVE to throw on you a wall of text, babbling all kind of pseudo tech stuff, to make you understand how great is she, how much she know about… everything.

Because is a ” she “… or at least that want us to believe .

This ” she ” don’t know that you DO need codecs to hear some music, including for games.

The same ” she ” has the ferm impression that FILES change names when loaded into an editor, or even more interesting, that the files, miraculously, change attributes because of the OS, so if you have something created in Windows XP and you run on Windows 7, you are doomed, your files will begin a crazy movement of changing names AND location, ( maybe they have free will ?! )

The same ” she ” accused one of the well know modders ( mostly for his gorgeous armor models and pictures ) that hi stoled textures from Skyrim… because she saw a GREYED field in NifSkope… without knowing that this was only a feature FOR the Skyrim models only!

The same ” she ” after it was removed from the testing team for AQFH 3, begin a not so subtle campaign against AQFH 3.

”  You wanna be really careful about who you slam on that web site


That’s a line from someone who is able to create only… pictures, taken using others work.

From someone who is confusing people with aberrant explanations.

Because that’s the main difference between creators and destroyers… the first ones could create something from their minds and souls, the second ones know only how to talk about…

Purr for me black kitty… and rest in cc mechanical pieces!

Just wait to read the next story… 🙂




A true story… episode 1

When the Fallout 3 mod “A Quest for Heaven: Secrets from the Past” first came out, the success was a surprise even for Doria aka Firelady.

You will never guess where had Firelady the “fire” to create such a gem on the first try. It’s true, it was the FIRST mod for Fallout 3 made by Firelady.

At some point she had asked a very “well renowned” mod maker for some advice and help regarding some scripting. The answer was: ” You have the GECK, learn by yourself, I don’t have time to waste with newbie’s“.

That was the starting point for one of the most successful series of mods for Fallout 3. That one arrogant answer.

During that period, the mod maker, who easily missplaces his notes, was overthrown by Firelady. Ah, but you don’t spit in someone’s face without consequences …

Time had passed and “A Quest for Heaven 2: Like a Diamond in the Sky” saw the light of public release … and then began a subtle crusade against Firelady. At least, from our point of view it did. Suspicious things began happening.

The Nexus site kept the “File of the Month” position open for 2 MONTHS and A Quest for Heaven 2 was not selected as a winner even though it had met all the requirements and had enough votes for that position at the end of the first month… this had never happened before, and it never happened afterward.

Time had passed again … and suddenly, the same well renowned mod maker began complaining (whined about it actually) that his mods NEVER win the “File of the Month” … you will never guess what happened next! Suddenly, the old mods with missplaced notes and meetings with strange bedfellows began to be VOTED File of the Month! Sure, a small number of votes, but enough to satisfy the ego.

At that point, Doria told me: “It’s time to leave Nexus, they don’t like us, they don’t want us!

I argued with her, for the sake of the fans of AQFH series. Why?, because you could find the “A Quest for Heaven” mod series being downloaded and rated by people from all over the world, from Russia to Japan, from North America to South America, from China to Malaysia. Let’s face it, it was a popular series that people all over the world admired.

She reconsidered pulling the series from Nexus based on my arguments. Finally, Doria (Firelady) was getting the recognition she deserved. AQFH 3  was voted File of the Month at the end of 2013. Too late for Doria… It was endorsed by so many, including the Nexus “micalov staff member “. Is this crazy or what?

Later, it would turn out that my advice to Doria was wrong, and that she was right all along.

But more in the next episode, about those who talk… and talk… and do nothing. They just talk, thinking that they have all the answers and that they are the “masters of advice”.

A story that begins with a Kat and ends in a drama…

A shameful decision

It was a time when visiting Nexus site was almost a daily basis.

It was… since someone from the staff decided that I’m no longer welcome.

And that someone proceeded in the most dictatorial possible way, something like in Kafka ” The Trial”.

Accused and executed without a minimal chance to defend my honor and reputation, like in the old “good” times of regimes like Nazi or Soviets.

I will reproduce here the original message sent to Nexus staff… never answered back.

I let the conclusions to your judgement.


Esteemed staff of Nexus

Regarding my recent ban from Nexus.

I want to clarify some aspects regarding the accusations made by micalov staff member.
I will quote he’s own words from the ban reason:

” Use of ripped assets in a mod and blatanly ignoring staff requests to remove them when you were given ample chance”

In the first PM message from micalov staff member to me, was mentioned the name of  Toxa, regarding an armor model for a character who briefly appear and some weapons models.
When I asked him about what specific mesh models are questionable,he mentioned again the armor model and some weapons looking “suspicious “, but the creatures models beeing ok to be used.
No exact pinpointing, no exact references, just… “looking suspicious”.
In my last PM message to him I was asking AGAIN to point me exactly to the questionable models, agreeing to change the armor and known Toxa weapons models, even I attached a list of the weapons models with the known and credited authors.
I NEVER got a response from micalov staff member… for months!
Who is ignoring who and who make false affirmations without CLEAR evidence??

You could verify this in your PM data base.

” You were asked to remove these assets from toxa1 and a few others some month back via private message and your file was hidden by staff”.

WHEN asked me in a private message micalov staff member to remove resources, beside toxa, “FROM A FEW OTHERS”?
From where show up suddenly those “FEW OTHERS”?
I stated clearly at the end of Credits list that I will gladly add to credits ANYONE who was not known or forgot.
Due to the way how AQFH3 was finished, I don’t had the full list of credits, even this days I have added to the Credits list an author discovered by chance ( added and endorsed ).
But from here to the false claim “toxa AND A FEW OTHERS ” it’s a long way.

Again, all my PM conversations with micalov staff member could be verified in your PM data base.

“Since you just unhide the file and left it intact… “

Maybe micalov staff member did not noticed the massive patch uploaded, who contain ALL the modifications I promised to make.
In ANY court in the civilized world this affirmation is simply… false ( using a civilized word ).

I was open minded and good will,I made the changes and uploaded into the AQFH3 PAtch 01, so the file is not “intact”.

So WHAT is the ban reason?!

( Excuse my English if is strange…)

And now the cherry on the cake…
Since when micalov staff member is entitled to make moral judgments about shame?
On others hard work and passion.
Ignoring people, false acusations and truncated truth, this are the dictatorial arguments of a staff member from Nexus?

Don’t you DARE to bring Firelady’s name as an argument to ME, micalov staff memeber!I was there not you!
WHO gives you the right to patronize people? Internet?
Shame on YOU!